In the Heart of Forgetting ... Too Right

Don't you forget Greg, that this was about getting around the world, not bitching about everyday problems. Stay strong and be patient, you will get your chance, just be smart enough to recognize the fakes and take advantage of the real... chances.

The Same Stress

I wonder if the stress never gets easier or you have the same feelings because of the way the moon aligns with the planets. I'm not sure what to think. It pisses me off how people can be so rude and unconscious of how they behave. You do so much for them and for yourself that in the end, the only pay-off you get, is a simple satisfaction that the the time to complete the task is over. The success is enough to calm you down but the real disappointment is the unstable bodies that float around you like lazy seaweed touching the bottoms of your legs.

Believe In Yourself

Without really knowing yourself, how can you explain your actions to the most important person in the world, yourself? Look straight into the mirror and imagine yourself with different colors covering your face, then try to imagine your real worth and the strength that is there and the strength that you don't see. Once you can grasp how far you reached and waht strength you used, at that point hopefully you will know, not think, you will know what is possible and what you can achieve, but achieve to those expectations that are worth setting your standards too, that makes a you man, when you listen truly to your ... I guess soul.

Teaching English

Well who can really say that I am teaching English. I am starting to feel a little like all those rejected teachers who really don't want to waste their time on a subject that maybe one or two kids like, well, its not necessarily all like that. I just that it would be better not to charge money to these people who I go give English Lessons to, its just , well, wrong in a way. Languages are a gift to the world and now we mechanized it so we can profit from it. Man "Sometimes I despise the species".

What about a German Documentary

So I have been in Germany for more than one year now. To be exact, one year and a half day, what a trip, meaning both metaphorically and literally. I was drinking some coffee this morning at the Meesenberg cafe by the Tweder Plack Haltestelle, bus stop, and thought of maybe doing some artistic work with a camera, something that would be interesting to watch and learn from.

Here and It's Good

So I got the "Erlaubnis" for the "wifey" and things are easing down. I'm trying to keep track of the money and my patience, just relaxing and ready to get back to work. I love the fact that I actually did it, I moved, I conquered, I made a new Life. What a weird fucked up place man.

Chris Botti Is Too Good

He plays simple music but with such a grace that makes the trumpet sound like heaven. Really great stuff. He has Italia with Andrea Bocelli. They play great together. I missed it so much from waking up in the morning in Delaware, I just had to find out who it was that I listened to all the time over there. Jon started me on him because he's a trumpet player himself, as well as Justin. What good music.

I have been Busy

Its been pretty crazy now. I don't know exactly it was when I wrote my last post but I better get at it again. So now I am working at McDonald's waiting to move into my new apartment and waiting to get the paperwork done for Nastia's Aufenthaltserlaubnis. I already talked withe the people at the Ausländerbehorde and they want me to come in for an appointment. Well at least it is here in Flensburg and not in Southern Schleswig Holstein.

I am also continuing to play baseball, even though my arm has been killing me after the last game for a couple of days. I don't want to have all these different pressures weighing me down when Nastia is here and when I have my new place. I guess it's just an excuse to get out of Klaus and Mom's house once and a while.

I am really upset up about the whole situation. I don't think, in the end it was a good idea to move to another country so fast. It really made me see things differently. I guess differently than I saw before. I never felt the presence of the word immigrant on my shoulders before. I am German which is nice but know I have a slightly better appreciation for people that come from somwhere else and are only immigrants.

Hey Brandon

This one is for you. He had a great question? ``So do you like Germany more than USA?.``

I thought about that for like three weeks...Oceans Twelve Quote.

No , but seriously. There are pluses and minuses in every situation. Life is not about the ends, its about the means. Peoples brains are meant to have hope and to see the good in things. When this is not possible they get depressed and feel suicidle because they cant see the reasons to live. It is a culture, it is a lesson, it is a way of life,. basically. If you cant enjoy the bad times in life, you are setting yourself up for dissapointment. Even people we may call losers need to see the hope in what they do. Drug addicts need to find the way out. A midst all the shit in peoples life, we have take the bad, or what the general consensus for bad is and reshape to good, becasue without that we, a type of being on earth will have lived for nothing. Who know's, maybe GOD as we say. A figment of our generational story telling.

Wow 60 posts

I didnt know I can talk about so much STUFF: Everything is well here in Deutschland. I am learning the piano, thinking about going to Bahamas, missing my cats, working things out with Nastia always, talking to family usually, and all else is normal. Who knows maybe something really nice will happen tomorrow, something that I never though would happen but does...Is it wrong to trust in that kind of hope?

Time to Mail Some Stuff

Im mailing some German cookies to Antonio, I hope he likes them, hell I hope they get to him in Iraq!

Walking Pace

If your not rich you have to walk around the World. How else are you going to get around this huge place.

Jealousy

Whats the real word for it, whats the real definition. I think it is more about the inner person than the outer circumstances.

Who Was Born On My Day / Whose Day Was I Born On

Mystery Person of the Day

Who am I? I was born on this day in 1945. While learning the welding trade in Kingston, Jamaica, I started my first vocal group in 1961 called the Rudeboys; we later changed the name to the Wailers.

My Sign

Your Astrological Sign

Aquarius is symbolized by the water bearer. Aquarians are curious and independent. They are more concerned with intellectual pursuits than with physical matters. Intuitive, Aquarians can easily grasp abstract concepts. Learn more about Aquarius.

Ok Finally

Finally I can come to ths blog, the one I started with and say a few words, geez. I am only being silly because I took so much time to day for all the other blogs. I want to lean German, Russian, Portuguese, Piano, so many different things, its amazing.